hello you're illiyana!

2010-05-30T13:06:00.004+08:00

you knw what turns me off?
when people clean up my room.
that's a no.1 turn off. hahah.
fuck.
i hate to be rude. now i feel sucky.
argh. maybe its time i move out.
hougang pon hougang la.
k bye.

2010-05-26T14:28:00.000+08:00

what's with me and pms? urgh!

2010-05-26T00:34:00.001+08:00

Short Stories With Tragic Endings- FATA
speaks it all.

2010-05-25T23:55:00.002+08:00

finalllllyyyyyyy!
dash berlin is coming to zouk.
i'm nt a party animal.
but this one = have to go.
not surprised if its lechak.
oh well. come la bring it on la.
weeeeeee. must save up.
i want to buy a piggy bank.
how to save if you got no money in the first place.
huh? haha.
cb. fuckin difficult to get a job.
people has been pestering me about mlm. argh.
totally not used to this free-broke-brainless life.
i kinda miss school. actually nt really ah. yuck.
but i miss being busy. yes that sounds better.

four letters to describe my life now:
F-F-M-L

someone please buy me paints and canvases.
i really need to paint. =(

2010-05-16T14:47:00.002+08:00

hello. its a sunday.
sunday morning rain is falling.
i hope. fuckin warm day ah.
everyday is a fuckin warm day tho its gonna rain.
chikuai.
and so i ve been procrastinating my resume.
so lazy to update. but i need to asap in order to find a job.
i shall finish it tdy. must.
bolls.
guess its a stay-home-sunday.
dad's not happy with me.
oh well!
kbye.
oh yah, awesome birthday week! love you guys.

2010-05-03T23:54:00.003+08:00

finally, its fuckin over.
like finally!
tmr will be one of the happiest days!
wooooowzz.
finally i can:
SLEEEEEEEEEEEEP. shop. make things. clean my room. exercise. exercise more. sleep again. find a fuckin job. catch up with music. start on piano. sleep again. party! and more and more.
hahhahahaha.

just one problem- money.

2010-05-01T12:57:00.002+08:00

okay so tdy is a saturday.
im not feeling the weekend vibe, cus well,
i staying over in school tonight. AGAIN.
pretty gay right. i know. sheesh.
i gotta do what i gotta do man. chiong all the way.
mutherfucka!
so yah. weekend=burnt.
its okay. next week. andy moor. wowz.
pre-bday party. i like the idea. woooooooooooooo.

i gotta admit i kinda hate this cloud-nine feeling.
can't blame me for being pessimistic for these kinda issues dude.
i ll make a fire for you so you cant sleep.
muhahahahahhahahhahah.
kbye.

2010-04-29T00:36:00.002+08:00

im still tired. boooo. :(
nvm. 5 more days to ultimate freedom! wooooo.

i want cinammon meltzzz,
i want to meet my friends!!!
miss them.

2010-04-25T23:26:00.002+08:00

i feel like...a slut.
or maybe i just feel different.
idk. maybe not.
maybe im just too harsh to myself.
well ppl, always expect the unexpected.
oxymoronic i know.

nontheless, the weekeds was fuckin awesome!
was glad rashish had a blast. woooooo!
but ATB was perch gilz. haiyah wastage.
but whatever to ATB.
the bday bash was lechak. the hotel was lechak.
the people were lechak. thumbs-up, people!
it was a good run la.
interesting weekend. very.

urgh back to reality. cb cb!

2010-04-19T00:03:00.002+08:00

and so goodview doesnt have a playground with a swing.
balls. am fuckin lazy to search. so i shall just photoshop it. HAHA.

things are getting better now...
but the bzackness will come again next week bolls.
hmmm..how it feels like to be living in denial?
dont ask me why.
k bye.
eh rhyme ,hahahaha.

2010-04-15T22:25:00.002+08:00

and so the doctor said i need more sleep.
=(
sorry doc can't listen to you.
for now.

i miss my awesomes.
boohoo!

4D is killing me!
nbcb.

2010-04-14T23:28:00.002+08:00

this is the cause of a sleepless night...
if only that is for real.

i shall sleep early tonight woowieee!

2010-04-11T23:26:00.002+08:00

okay this bzackness,
its like reaching the tip of my head.
i promised nt to blog abt it anymore,
but i just gotta let it out.
i swear this sem is a fuckin hell!
procrastination is inevitable but i know i havent been slackin alot......
yet im still going bonkers w the dates.
and exam is coming.
and fyp submissions are back to back.
my weekend was burnt with history and the library.
my week is gonna get burnt with painting and sound production.
loser thing is im fuckin slpy right now.
its not even midnight. sheesh!
people get emo cus of heartaches or love or what shit its called,
but i get emo cus of school?
HAHAHHAHA. loser.
loser
loser
loser
lo-ser!

3 more weeks.
k bye goodlifers!

2010-04-07T00:54:00.001+08:00

yes! i am gonna start piano.
woooooooooo. exciting.
something to make my life busier.
wtf. my magee sucks. i suck at cooking.
perch. put too much pepper.
haizz.
k bye losers.

2010-04-06T17:20:00.002+08:00

and so driving starts in an hours time. peak hr. grrrr.
so lazy to drive tdy.
and the fact tht i have driving everyday till fri is not helping the mind at all!
bad timing to cumshot book. really wrong period.
should ve booked when hol starts or smtg.
oh vells. lets get it over and done with.

and i didnt go to sch tdy, hahah!
couldnt be bothered by today's class.
total waste of time. i'd rather watch glee back to back. which i did.
lolz. perch.but well, i am indeed struggling with all the bzackness.
plus my time management suck bolls.
i am going bananas! stinky bananas to be exact.
maybe cus my mind is just used to weekends=go out haha.
come la pull yourself together la!
fuck you.

and i can' stop peeling the dry skin off my nose.
haha.
should i chill ltr or should i not?
i hate this feeling. =(

2010-04-01T14:46:00.003+08:00

i miss my friends.
i need them now.

2010-03-30T23:53:00.001+08:00

i am going crazy.
mj, come to mama.
stupid urine test.

2010-03-29T21:28:00.003+08:00

k photoshop is being a bitch right now.
so let's have a break!
cold weather and cold milo. very the not nice.
hahah. cold weather plus pms? nice.
yeah i realized i ve been pmsy these few days.
well lets just say...
things around me appear to be dark and blue, plus the rain is not helping.
idk what was i thinking but what i knw is, i should stop.
cut the drama cus it's so last year, like literally last year. haha.
what's more important now is school. =D
and im not proud of that fact, people.
i mean the patterns are really giving me a bad trip.
hahahah. everywhere i see is patterns! wth.
gotta rush rush rush!
nbcb.
no sleep again tonight. what's new?!!!!!!
fuck typed.

2010-03-29T01:30:00.001+08:00

i just can't wait forever you see.

2010-03-28T16:51:00.002+08:00

i feel like drinking coconut juice!
dk why im so thirsty. so lazy to do anything.
balls. the awesome shower is making me slpy now.......
wells! marco v's set was a good one. surprisingly. i dont really fancy him actually,
but i guess people can prove you wrong. awesome live! despite the irritating crowd. nonetheless,was so happy to hear fantastic damage.
it really made the night a complete one. wooooo!a lechak month. party every week. wth zouk,haha. but april's nt a gd one so its good. april's gonna give us a slack! i have to admit- i am kinda tired of partying alr. hahah. yes! i like this feeling. no more lying to dad, no more perch moments. plus drinking every week can make me go sick of it. im actually feeling that a fever's coming. =/

okay i need to start exercising.
yah you can call me eyebags now.
hi, my new name is eyebags.
or fat also can.
damn i look like a zombie these days.
one more month to four months of freedom!
can't wait!

'
wth? its 28th. so fast alr coming to april!
i wonder what's april gonna be like...
haizzz. so tired!!! k bye.

2010-03-27T00:54:00.002+08:00

Illiyana Here feels sucky right now.
Illiyana Here is mindfucked.
Illiyana Here can't believe she's posting this.
Illiyana Here just wants you to realize.
Illiyana Here is not here.

you suck.

2010-03-25T23:37:00.002+08:00

today is called disney day!
why? cus i watched anastasia and the swan princess. teehee.
wanted to watch the little mermaid but i had to leave to meet em so yah. =/
what a weird movie marathon.
hahaha. feeling2 like wanna watch cartoon thats why.
anastasia is a good animation ah. dimitri is hot ah!
what is happening to me? dinosaurs. now cartoon.
hahahah wtf. well these kinda movies make me feel sucky cus they always have a happy ending.
boooooooo.
but having a disney vibe feels good. makes me feel young.
huh!? hahahah. maybe im just deprived of childhood.
must be the stupid monkey that my grandma had when i was like 2.
made it sleep w me. so yeah technically, i slept w a monkey.
ew. =!
huh? no link.

and so nisa turns 20 today.
wooo dah kakak2.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, NISA!
pass your license babe so we can drive2. wooooooo.
yah like we have a car haha.

demi lovato- here we go again
dont ask me why. i just feel the song.
random moments.
nonetheless, demi is fuckin hot ah.
k i wanna start drawing bye you fag nuggets!
hahahahah fag nugget. wth.

2010-03-25T00:53:00.003+08:00

rain rain rain!
i want rain now.
cus i wanna have the best sleep ever.
yay tmr no sch. super duper good news okay.
can wake up late. heeeeee.
it's really scary cus ive been eating alot, like fuckin alot.
eat while watching tv,
then aft tht fall alsp. perch!
perch is perch one.
anw i was watching dinosaurs in national geographic,
and i was really fascinated!hahah.
can i keep a baby dinosaur fr a pet?
okay fine they re extinct.
how about a baby elephant?
awwww so cute. HAHAHAH.
plus
i should exercise. no beer belly pls.
walauweh. randomization.

its 1 am, dont ask me why im still awake.
but ask me what im gonna do next....
SLEEP. huahuahua. k bye.

2010-03-23T23:22:00.002+08:00

if my back can cry, they would be crying alr.
"massage me! massage me!"
no sleep tonight, again. =(
as always, i shall survive.
and flu is not helping the situation at all.
gosh i need an umbrella.
i keep getting caught in the rain.
but it's good cus it makes me run to school.
hahahah what a loser.
booooooooooooohoooooooo.
ffml.

on the other side, tmr's the last day of sch fr this week.
long weekend. wooooo!
go je.

2010-03-22T23:47:00.002+08:00

k gay. i just wasted 15 mins reading my brother's entry. bumped into his blog.
hahah cute posts. smtg i would write when i was 15. well, not really ah.
huahuahua.
internet connection in my lappy sucks la nbcb.

the fyp season is coming.
arrrgh im gonna be fuckin bzack.
and i can go bonkers. really.
cus im alr gg bonkers.
hahaha. im youtube-ing for inspirations, but turns out that im watching annoying orange.
hahahaahahaah fuckin funny. stupid orange.
its really funny ah. then next time you eat orange you ll laugh to yourself.
hey hey hey hey hey hey hey.
haha sorry im bored.
gotta save up money cus i foresee a lechak expenditure on art fr my fyps.
balls. stupid sch. bluergh.

so we were bored and we spent some time vandalising im's notebook w quotes.
and i came up w this:
" the forest is where you got lost.
the waterfall is where you should be.
you ll fall you know." - illiyana

huh?! hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.
doesnt make sense i knw.
but i like it. =)
k bye you seeeetoooopid melons.
hahahahha woooooooo.

2010-03-20T14:38:00.003+08:00

illiyana must be the happiest girl the whole fuckin world
cus she has photoshop! hahahaha.
stupid keygen make my life complicated.
but it was all good. woots woots!
now i can do work in peace.
and i just had the weirdest dream ever.
k bye.

2010-03-20T00:35:00.004+08:00

and so placebo was fuckin awesome.
placebo just reminded me of someone.
oh well.
hmm was expecting more crowd. old-timers. go je.
cheap thrill. losers to those who paid.
hahaha. chivas + reds = really givin me sore throat.
bluergh. wells i suck at neat. hahah.

i feel like going for a haircut.
a new look. i hate my hair now.
yucks. i shall go to tony&guy again and let em do what they want w my hair.
feeling like stopping it at the shoulders. i ll fuckin look like dora. =/
hahaha. well not like i got someone to impress anw. hahaha. go je illiyana.
wooooooo. i feel a new vibe in me.
actually not really ah. haha.
tmr is a sat and im headin to sch. cb i need photoshop la.
i swear ive used all versions of trial and now im photoshop-less.
so, heeeellllpp! cus gg to sch just fr photoshop really sucks. urgh.
daddy i want my mac now pretty please. yeh pity him actually.
i feel kinda bad that he has to fork out a large sum fr me. bt i guess mac is a must.
i swear my life would be way easier sia. fml. sucks to be illiyana right now.
sucks to be me everyday. life is getting boring.
not really ah. cus i have awesome friends. haha!
but actually it is getting boring.
and the fact that i was at woodlands, treehaus to be precised,
just now is not helping the situation at all.
hahahahahahahhaha.
oh dear i sound pathetic.

come la people tmr ottaviani la.
woooooooo.
hopefully not so packed like cosmic gate.
hopefully the boys wont get wasted again.
hopefully we can have some cangkong drinks action.
haha cheapskate. perch is perch one!
k bye my wonderful readers.

2010-03-18T12:36:00.002+08:00

walauweh. this sem confirm my GPA like shit.
been missing classes like all the time. haha.
perch. honestly im pretty worried for myself.
i gotta push myself like seriously push myself fr my FYPs.
nbcb.
sigh. this sem my momentum really gone sia.
what happened to my passion for art?!
whatever that means. pfft.

and people, pls watch green zone.
happening movie! go go go.
i havent watch Alice tho. heard its nt that good.
the plot i mean. wells, maybe will just dl. haha.
must watch hurt locker also.
wah this month is a tak-bagi-chance month.
happening movies, happening djs.
well, broke is broke one!
and being jobless is not helping the situation at all.
okay tuition is totally nt helping too. balls.
and so today is just another thursday.
some lepak action later with the lechaks.
maybe crashing placebo.
go je.

sigh. i am a misguided ghost.

2010-03-16T13:15:00.002+08:00

i am craving for churros now!
k bye.

2010-03-14T00:43:00.003+08:00

BALLS ITS SUCH A WARM NIGHT!
maybe its just me. chose the wrong outfit.
thought it's gonna rain and such. loser. -_-

and so this week passed by like a bullet!
been such a super duper bzack week.
so fast alr sunday. paramore was like last week?
and i can still feel the vibe. i would really love to relive it.
cb how many days alr and im broke.
partying sucks! cus it makes you broke. hahaha. babi.
yesterday was totally uncalled for. random decision.
steve bug was awesome! great set.
but spent most of the time controlling myself
and taking care of the boys.
stupid white French who bought us alot of drinks.
yeah, free drinks. but omg, too much.
lucky i wasnt up for it that much, if not i guess all of us would sleep outside zouk.
for the first im got drunk. wooooooo. guess it was my turn to return the favour.
seriously bro you were rabak. nvm. go je. rabak is rabak one!
hahah. it was a good run.
but balls, if only we spent more time with steve bug than puking. -_-
it was really a good set.
sigh.
cant believe zouk is in my calender like every week.
stupid zouk bring in a lot of awesome guest djs.
come la my awesomes! see you there ottaviani and marco v!
cant miss them man. i forsee a happening march. hhahaha.
but still, i hate march.
i hate boys.
they make me cynical and pessimistic. bluergh.
i know it sounds corny, but really, i hate boys.
i guess i dont need these unnecessities right now.
totally unnecessary. being single makes my parents happy anyway.
huh? no link. hahahah.
k i wanna bathe in ice now. bye.

random, but i miss my veggies.

2010-03-10T18:22:00.002+08:00

and so i have not been feeling very well.
cranky-ness due to tiredness. rhymes haha.
cant believe i didnt sleep for two nights and im still alive and kicking.
dad should be glad that im home early everyday this week.
and the fuck typed thing is i fuckin misplaced my ciggies.
aaaarrrgghhh illliyana is the mother of all stupidity man.
i really tried to trace back bt cb i cant remember anything.
my brain cells are all dead. hahahah.
and the fact that i have 200 hundred candles in front of me is totally not helping.
tonight im gonna play with wax babey!
stupid sculpture. -_-

and i really miss my awesomes.
and that includes you.
if only bedok and batok is nearby.
i mean they sound almost the same.
hahahahahahahah. wtf.

2010-03-09T01:27:00.003+08:00

hello wonderful and lovely people!
its almost 2am and the night is still young.
i can't sleep. i mean i must not sleep!
yeah its always the stupid boring same ol' reason, people.
projects,deadlines,projects, deadlines, DEADlines.
its not that i like to whine about it, but
i really really am suffering right now with the stress and sleepless nights thats gonna come.
and honestly, i dont blame my procrastination.
i blame my school. give holiday for what. bluergh!
i can only be a sleeping beauty,or beast, hahaha, on thursday night.
and i make sure i will sleep like a fuckin pig. off my phone if i have to. ARGH.
nonetheless, ciggies and redbull are my besties now. :)

and FFFFFFUUUUUUUUHHHH!
i really cannot emphasize further how fuckin awesome my weekend was!
cosmic orgasmic gate! man on the run was indeed a surprise.
such a wastage that i was super tipsy when they started spinning.
i hate being tipsy. it troubles people and i hate that.
it gives me perch moments and i hate that too.
balls to im cus he kept makin me drink. you suck bro. hahahah.
i promise myself i ll make you damn wasted and may you have the perch-est moment ever.
then let the TANGS girl see you. hahahaah bastard.
nt surprised that it was super duper packed! sheesh. bt it was all goood.
another happening night at zouk.
ottaviani is next week. come la my awesomes!

and not forgetting, PARAMORE.
gosh. speechless. awesome to the blossom.
it made me love them more. lechak!
perform tk bagi chance. it feels fuckin great to be there ah.
honestly like a dream come true. been watching their lives almost all the time.
but being physically there, it just feels great!
i just wished they would perform all three albums straight in a night.
lechak. but no, hayley may die and i dont want that to happen. hahah.
im like so sad that it already happened.
i just wish i can have the remote and keep playing that night when we were all there going crazy.
like literally crazy. i think i grew taller eh. hahahahah!
halfway through and my neck hurts. probably due to muscle strain.
after that i cant even look down hahaha. felt cacat.
and did i mention, the crowd was mutherfuckinly crazy?
yeah they were. guess we were unlucky enough to be the ones to fall in the pen.
and i was shocked, mentalblock. couldnt think how to get up back.
it was like a domino. cb. it feels good to be able to save ticks. poor thing. she was one of the last few to stand up cus of the stupid guy on top of her who i guess was brainblocked too.
the crowd wanted to fall on her again. im not bragging here but i guess if i wouldnt have pushed the people in front of ticks, they would have fallen on her and that would be fuckin lechak.
honestly i thought i would have fainted. it was really bad im nt kidding hahah.
suddenly at that point of time i wish we had more guys with us. luckily yan was there.
now i have phobia. i shall just stand behind next time. hahah.
the back space was way better. fine, we re nt close to them,
but i d rather shake and bake within the space and enjoy the set,
than trying to figure out how to survive the lechakness of the crowd in front.
really a blasting night. too bad not full strength. but it was all good. fuckin good.
pls kill me if i say i wont watch paramore again. really awesome la.

and so these kinda events make me love my friends more. :)
wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!
okay back to reality. =(

2010-03-05T23:17:00.003+08:00

i miss sleeping.
nbcb.

and this weekend is going to be the most happening weekend in my life.
ironically, i hate march.
i hate to march anw. i like to walk.
HUH?!
hahahahahah.

and yeah, you're fucked up.
you are a fuckin loser.
i really dont know how to further emphasize that.
i really dont understand why people start rumours.
what do you gain sia. like seriously what do you gain.
like what the fuck you want from me.
like what the fuck is wrong with you.
like i really really really dont understand these people.
its really frustrating cus i just cant understand.
cb if i matrep i smash your face sia.
but im not ah. hahahahaha.
bt now i wish i am. hahahah. perch.
like seriously, go get a life.
cus im enjoying mine.
i really wanna smash your face.
three words for you-kau take care.

and tmr will be another awesome night with my awesomes. =)

and i really really miss those veggies. my head needs a break. ARGH.

2010-03-02T11:58:00.002+08:00

a holiday does not feel like a holiday at all.
so many deadlines next week!
stupid cb school! i have a life too okay!
i only have till fri to finish the stupid 4 projects.
and today is tuesday?! =!
guess the next meet up with the usuals is cosmic,
which is sat.
oh god please dont make me procrastinate.
guess i have to stock up more redbull.
sleeping is an option.
sleeping is just a waste of time.
i am officially a no-lifer. =(

okay my head is going bonkers now.
i want to quit school. can?

2010-03-01T14:15:00.002+08:00

an old friend came up to me for an advice about BGRs.
sorry people, but hell yeah, i am skeptical when it comes to that part.
you should have seen my face when i watched Vday. -_-
back to the point-
and yeah i realized that, i used to be good at advising, cus well to me, it made sense.
i used to be good at enlightening myself about it when i advice.
but now, i dont know whther i was making sense.
my suggestions didn't sound convincing at all.
but then i come to realise, i miss being in that position.
the days when i was clueless and lost and idk, when i was like shit.
what's happening now, it's too good to be true.
oh well, i just believe that if it happens, it happens.
everyone will have their moments yeh.

and so i told my friend to make candles for her.
cus i know it would be one of the happiest days of her life. (:

KAY I AM LATE FOR VIVO.
bye.

2010-02-27T01:34:00.002+08:00

omg i can't believe i spent two hours watching paramore vids non-stop.
i am seriously counting down to 7 mar.
and ticks, i am going to drag you to the front. kau take care. HAHA.
kay sorry random.
woooooooooooooooOOOOOoooooOOOOOooooOoooooX1000!
CANT WAIT. =)

and im working in 7 hrs time. =(
=) + =( = -__-
HUH???!!!! haha. k bye.

2010-02-26T20:08:00.002+08:00

ARRRGHH chest pains again!
cannot be the ciggies man. must not be. =(

can't believe this week is my last week in CO.
undeniably i am going to miss it there.
from A-Z sia. from the times of amzah ayuni who made work fun
to the the times of candy who made work less fun? haha.
guess im just throwin away the 7/hr just like tht. but oh well.
school is a bitch and i hafta live with that. i just cant wait for yr 2 laaaaaa.
considering the fact that this week is my last week, i ve been having the ord mood.
my customer service suck plus i wear slippers to work HAHAH. ord mesti ord nya!
wtf. and hell yeah im gonna miss slackin, blasting music and dancing w ticks at body.
and fuckin hell yeah i am going to miss wearing the leapord plush gown when im feeling cold.
booohoo.

its a fri night and i am at home? sorry rashid and im.
i have to catch up with schoolwork. enough of the nagging bros.
happy?!!!!! hahahahahha. you guys really make a cute gay couple.
HAHAH kay dont go there bros.
and i am broke, so no point joining you guys tonight.
balls la all my money always gets finished in zouk.
and speakin of which, its SVR this cmg sat @ zouk.
i wanna goooo! but no money.
how?:(

2010-02-25T02:57:00.002+08:00

its 3 am now. and i just got back from JB.
was a good run.
thanks for asking me along. =)
80 sticks of satay?! lechak! but we finished it.
made new friends. bunch of awesome kecoh people.
besok must go joggin man. -_-
and to atiq im and rashid,
i got endless lucky strike.
MUAHAHAHA korang take care.
kinda miss you guys though. =/
paderhal last mon we just met lol.

some lepak action tmr with the awesomes?
go je!

2010-02-23T00:17:00.003+08:00

damn i miss singing.
watching em jam just brings back the time.
but maybe if there's a next time, i think it'll be with different.
i mean i really lost touch my dunearn roots alr. haha.
not that i miss it. sorry. hahaha.
hmm, it feels good to teach actually.
just that i really have to bury my head in the books.
i kinda lost touch with science so yah.
luckily the girl's a fast learner. phew.
she's so pretty. HAHA.

and tmr like finally i am back to school.
hang in there, illiyana. 3 more days of sch and you're having a week of break.
well nt really. confirm got projects to do. =(
nonetheless, cosmic gate + paramore = kau take care.
WOOOOoooooOOOOooo.

i love my friends. teehee. k bye.

2010-02-22T00:49:00.003+08:00

The Past Should Stay Dead- Emarosa

you think so?
i feel like killing someone now.
and i just know who it is.

argh fuck i hate school.
i fuckin hate school!
plus i have tuition tmr.
balls to you, you and you!

seriously let me kill someone now.

and hell yeah, i open up zips when i am drunk! -_-
go fuck yourself.

2010-02-21T10:40:00.003+08:00

sunday morning rain is falling, NOT.
can't believe im up this early.
blame yesterday's boredom!
sat night didn't feel like a sat night.
was too bored so i just crashed bed early.
i felt like a no-lifer for once. hahahaha.
damn, should've joined the usuals at town and l4d.
but nontheless, i'm glad i was a good girl.
i mean i haven't been showing face at home since idk when.
so mom and dad, please appreciate that. :)
and dad's getting me a blackberry.
maybe cus it's $0. dad, GO JE.
haha! it's definitely better than this sony ericsson that is non-qwerty,
and i really can't stand non-qwerty.
ohhhhhhh i really miss my E71. =((
stupid careless me.

i cancelled my shift today so tht i can go all out for my schoolwork today.
hmm, hopefully everything will go as planned. i really hate to procrastinate.
really really hate procrastinate. but seriously sometimes i cant help it.
my mind is totally not keen in school. hahaha. can't wait for year 2.
atleast i'm doing something that's relevant to my interest.
so, balls to year 1.
speaking of school, im really torn in between.
i found out that the demand for the student exchange is overwhelming.
now they're asking people to volunteer to say no.
should i should i?
i mean, theres pros and cons.
cons is being in US fr 3 fuckin mths fuckin suck.
because it's long and i am definitely gonna miss my lovelies.
the pro is the experience of course.
arrrrgrgrggghhghfhhhhh.
70-30.
70% no. hahahahah.

yeah yeah i know, i have been eating really really alot.
am very chubby now im nt jk.
and i hate that.
i shall go for a jog tmr morning or something.
hahahahhahahahahahahahah.

2010-02-19T00:56:00.002+08:00

next time, dont ask OCBC.
balls. what a thing to start the day with.
i actually wasted 45 mins of my life q-ing fr the bloody sch fees,
in the end of the day, cannot pay.
ujdhwufhfuewfbufu cb.
balls to OCBC laaaaaaa.
plus balls to sch fees.
miscellaneous fees= pay for nothing.
stupid or what?!
hahahhahahaha.

work was bzack. but fun cus atiq was there. huahuahua.
some project action. go je babe.
project mesti project nya! and sorry i had to leave the store in a mess.

but oh well, god is fair.
cus the day ended up with a smile.
awesome night.
wow. been so long since i felt the vibe for first..hmm, dates?
food for thought.
hahha. it was a good run. awesome blossom! =))))))))))))

2010-02-17T13:57:00.002+08:00

HELLO GOOD DAY PEOPLE.
it's a wednesday and i am not in school.
dont ask me why hahahhaha.

i feel like going to the beach. the weather's awesome blossom!
lying down on the sand and swimming sounds like a good plan.
but oh well, everyone's bzack today.
guys gg gym,atiq is working. =/
someone please entertain me here. lol.
music is not helping now.

okay it's been almost 2 weeks now.
fb pics nt helping. haha kay i sound like a psycho.
tkpe bzack mesti bzack punye.
k bye.

i wanna watch vday. =(
dont laugh at me. hahahaha.

2010-02-16T16:09:00.002+08:00

yeah markus schulz balls. and he was fuckin awesome ytd! hahahah.
but gareth emery still wins la. gareth emery was the sex. fuuuh!
happening shietz. and so ytd it was only me ticks and rashid.
too bad the others cant join. =/
happening sorang2 near the bar. HAHA! as expected, it was damn packed.
but i guess we picked good spots ytd. =)
and as usual, the stupid random people can just make your night funnier.
" if you want my number, you can just find me."
yah thats what im talking abt. sape mau layan.
HAHHAHAH. and i thought the world is a better place already lol.
but nonetheless, another awesome night with only the 3 of us.
if full strength, take care sia. hahah.
LOVE YOU GUYS! k gay.

oh man. i hate to be back to reality.
i havent been thinking about school since idk when.
and school's starting tmr. argh i really cant wait for the 3 mths break.
yes i mean it. school is boring!

and you're half the world away.

2010-02-15T00:33:00.000+08:00

i think im turning into a party animal.
HHHHHHEEEEEEEEEEEELPPPP!

2010-02-11T13:14:00.002+08:00

hurrrrrraaay! the long holiday is here.
6 days away from school. good enough.
i make sure im gonna have a hell of a weekend!

ZOUK PE?!
k bye.

2010-02-09T22:58:00.002+08:00

hello hello hello.
dont ask me why im here. random.
im fuckin bored. booohooo.
went missing. again, dont ask me why. hahha.

so how's life, illiyana?
well someone paitoa-ed me tdy. :(
so what do you think?
balls to me!
k bye.

suddenly i feel like partying.

2009-12-25T10:49:00.002+08:00

damn damn damn. i knw this random but,
i really miss the lot one team!
now, i don't knw everyone, and i don't wanna know them.
no communication needs. i don't know you and so be it.
no family. no chemistry. boohoo.
one by one, ppl go.
i'm waiting for my turn.

so what is your wish this festive season?
say it fast.hahahhah.
bye.

2009-10-20T00:20:00.003+08:00

MY ENTRY IS GONE.
BOOOOOHOOO.
I SUCK.

okay i miss shafii and i feel like squeezing his nipples.

had a great dinner ytd. cus it wasn't my money. HAHHHAHAHAAH.

2009-10-10T17:55:00.004+08:00

yeah i know, it has been toooooo long already. way too long.
and so yah, here i am! hahahaha.
there's a lot of things to rant.

firstly, i am fuckin BOREEEED! never been so so bored since idk when.
i feel like going out but seems like there's no one? and i dont feel like wasting money even though i have this sudden urge to shop. maybe cus im starting to take quite a long time to choose stuffs in the wardrobe hahahaha. it's a saturday: one of the best saturdays cus my workload this week is incredibly little, and yah i can have more time to enjoy and i am, not savouring it! sucks to be me. what a waste!
well, on the bright, i got to do more productive things like cleaning up my room, and i did! and i am very happy with it. hahahaha. well, that's all. hahahahhahaha. took a lot of hours man. must be a fuckin messy room i have huh. maybe later i'll be doing homework or smtg. maybe finish it tonight. so that i dont have to worry for the rest of tomorrow and monday. haha. we'll see.
but i really feel like going out. =(

this week was a horrible school week. damn alot of deadlines: 2 to 3 hours of sleep is already normal for me, well, leaving school at 11pm is a beginning. yeah i know, blame noone but myself. during recess week, i was slacking and the next thing i know, holiday's over. hahahahah. procrastination is really inevitable, boy. so dont blame me.

and hari raya is still going on, just that i dont really feel it anymore.

and you, hope you're enjoying yourself. you don't need me today.
yeah, those were the days. don't say i didn't try. sucks to be me then. it always does.

looks like the chemicals aren't reacting afterall.

2009-09-29T01:13:00.004+08:00

i am fuckin bored. its 1am and i cant sleep. idk. having a headache.

sometimes i question today.
sometimes i question yesterday.
sometimes i question tomorrow.
sometimes i question me.

when you dare me not to.
im tired.

2009-09-21T11:23:00.002+08:00

maybe tomorrow.

2009-09-09T23:58:00.002+08:00

and so the kitten died. =(
sadded sia. damn. i suck at pets.
hahah dont laugh at me. i wasnt at home when it died. so dont blame me.
nontheless, kinda sad ah. wth.

daaaaaaaaaaaaamn im shagged. i wanna sleep the whole day. i really do.
i miss sleeping fr 10 hours and not worry about whatever that's gonna happen next.
double damn. in conclusion, school life is fuckin fast-paced. i just miss the happy-go-lucky-i-dont-need-to-care-about-deadlines bla3.
we did stop-motion today. fun though. but sch still suck.

and sorry girls i cant join you guys for powerhouse.
sch's tmr. sorry i cant be punk rock. hahaha.
damn i miss my colleagues.

back to reality. kay bye.

2009-09-04T20:20:00.002+08:00

hey hey hey.
TGIF TTM!= thank god it's friday to the max!
hahaha. damn im fuckin shagged. i shall catch up with sleep this weekend yaw.
it has been a very tiring week in school cus of the rushing homeworks and lack of slp.
sometimes i feel like i have no life cus ive been doin art almost every single day within a time frame, meaning my life is rushing on it's own. and that sucks. i hate to rush in art. guess i dont have a choice huh.

it has been a rainy season and i love it. i really do.
if only i have the luxury of chilling and dozing off on my comfy bed- PERFECT.
well, i guess most of the time this weekend must be devoted to my never-ending assignments.
simply cus i am tired of rushing it the night before. i shall try to stop being a procrastinator. =(
all work and no play makes illiyana a dull girl. hahah.

oh man it's a boring and sleepy friday night.
oh you know what i mean. =/
and there's a new family member in the house. hahaha.
a bloody kitten. like literally.

2009-08-31T23:53:00.003+08:00

its 12am and im fuckin bored w hmwerk. lets take a break!

i was finding pics fr my hw and i bumped into this. hahahha. wtf.

Just 3 Years Old, 2006.

happy

teachers' day

all.

2009-08-31T23:11:00.003+08:00

okay i know this is fuckin random. this was my little red hair and damn, i kinda miss it. =(
and hey, i am certainly not a hair-camwhorer or smtg eh. hahahaha. wtf?! been thinking whether i should color it again. i need to look fresh. well, all work and no play makes illiyana a dull girl. that's why. all work? bullshit. haha.

last weekend was baybeats and it was more haps then last year. i think cus i dint even go last year's baybeats due to A lvls. couldnt be bothered to anyway. HAHA. been so long since i met the masses. been so long since i watch rock goes live yow. refreshing for my ears. GSE rocked. the vox quite cute. lol. first time watching Anberlin go live. first time watching US band go live actually. if only Paramore comes. damn. i wanna go. most expensive ticket i will buy. and i shall wanna invest in that cus i got a teeny weeny feeling they're coming. idk. gut-feeling. since they're all over MTV. pfft. anw back to Anberlin, the vox kinda cute too. esp when he was prespiring all over. sexy. actually the guitarist more sexy. and hell yeah we were almost in front. could see the security person w a fuckin ugly fierce look. chill ah bro. it's a gig. what do you expect, balls. hahha. stupid funny face sia. distracting sia. babi. HAHAHAHAHA. so a good thing to wrap up August. actually August is one of the better months of 2009! prob-free. i love. =)

and school is being a bitch. actually i am. i am just a fuckin procastinator. hence, i deserve to suffer.

this is purely literal and random:

breathe in deep
before I say
i can feel us slip away
you're almost gone
you're good as gone
august is over

i want alot of things.
i want a MACBOOK.
i want a new room.
i want a dslr.
i want a new bag.
i want the smallest kitten in the whole wide world.
i want a new boyfriend!
HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
balls to the last wish. im jk baby.
hahaahahahahaha.
XOXO!

2009-08-26T23:29:00.004+08:00

i am D E A D.

2009-08-22T15:34:00.002+08:00

HEY HEY HEYYYYYYYYY! long time no see balls.
yeah i know, i been MIA-ing and idk why. just lazy ah. stupid blog. only 2 people know. or maybe 3.

okay today marks the first day of the fasting month. and the reds came. wow. perfect timing.
but guess i'll cut down on the eating cus firstly there's no food now secondly, i am just not hungry yet. that is indeed surprising hahahah.
but what is more important is, SCHOOL HAS STARTED! hahahaha.
it has been 2 weeks of school- 2 hectic weeks i admit. damn. it's just the 2nd week, ballsx and i am trying my best to cope with the demanding assignments and time constraint plus i am a procastinator so it sucks to be illiyana huh! and work is in my way, but i need money too. i want my license! double damn. and i am damn broke. and that means it sucks to be me.

and now shafii is googling what time to break fast today. wth? HAHAHA. anw my farmer is cuter than yours baby. as if you give a shit. hahaha.

2009-08-05T12:51:00.002+08:00

helloooo it's a rainy wednesday and i didnt have a good sleep. =(
cus my throat was itchy. damn. i guess it must be the reds.
it's 5th aug and that means 2 more days to pay day. cant wait.
cus i am damn broke! i wanna thank all who have supported me financially this month. sigh.
im having prac later and hopefully it doesnt rain again cus ive never tried driving in the rain.
hahahahahaa.

kay bye.

2009-07-28T16:06:00.002+08:00

im working in 1 and a half hour's time. suddenly i dont have the working mood. i am damn fucking lazy to workk. arrrghh can the shop call me now and say something like, " hey dont come to work today. wanna cut manpower." then i will say " SURE DO =) !" HAHAHAH. but no. i dont think so. =(
damn illiyana, you have been very lazy these days. even a 5-hr shift is so...draggy? someone kill me now. but looking on the bright side, even if im not working, i'll still wanna die cus omg life can never be so boring................ .... ... .. .
haha!

i am officially broke! and it's more than a week to pay-day. booohoo.

2009-07-23T00:38:00.000+08:00

damn i wanna shop so so so badly!

2009-07-22T00:35:00.003+08:00

AFTER SOOO LONG OF NOT WORKING, my working mood is gone. =(

and now i am damn tired. dont ask me why i decided to change the link. i just want smtg different. and im planning to change the skin, just lazy. hahahah. damn i am fucking broke! it seems like im always broke ard this time every month. i really reallyx100 need to work on money-management. it's really worrying me balls. and tomorrow is afternoon shift again. i kinda hate closing cus of the rack-up and going-home-late. but i guess i got used to it. i cant wait fr sch. most imptly, i cant wait to get my license. driving is really addictive. more addictive than ciggies. haha okay i just lied.

funny thing is noone knows the new link. so actually im kind of talking alone. sounds fun huh. since i have been talking alone these days. when imran checks his hp and there's no missed calls or messages, he will say.." aku tk famous? mane boleh?" hahahah. so now it's my turn-

AKU TAK FAMOUS? MANE BOLEH? hahahahahahahahahaahahah.

damn ive been taking in alot of junk food recently. time for the gym. for real, ballsxsxsxs. hahahaha. and damn im and rashid kept teasing me bout me being the only one on earth who have not watch Transformers. they said i could wait for the tv premiere on CH5. thanks bros! hahahah bastard.

goodnight imaginary people.

2009-07-21T00:44:00.003+08:00

hey hey ho! its 1AM and i am not that sleepy. what happen to my i-sleep-like-a-pig attitude man? hahahah. i've been sleeping with awareness and that suck! i wanna sleep like a pig. i love sleeping like a pig actually. but ever since camp, i've been waking up early even though i have no plans. damn.

and it has been so long since i smelled the wind, the salty waters, the double choco. hahaha. so yeah. smtg to reflect about- i mean i thought it's gonna be awkward or smtg. but i guess we pulled it off just fine.

and hell yeah. it has been a damn fucking long time since i am like really single. i mean i used to be technically single. and now, bet my hp bills' gonna make grin from ear to ear huh. and you mr. ex-bf who i thought it was so tough for us to move on- you have been very immatured. you have been very selfish. all you care is avenging yourself. dont say you miss me, dont say you still love me cus i dont buy it anymore. i am tired. i am done convincing myself that things could work because i realized that things are not the same anymore. i am utterly sick of countering your arguments. i am sick of having the same problems. basically i am sick of your cow crap that you have been giving me. cus all you think of is revenging and all you can think of is bringing the damn past to point out my flaws. well guess what, i tried to bury the past for you, and i did. but all you did was threw it straight in my face. and dont you dare say that i am heartless cus i know i have not been, unlike the past. i was heartless for you. and i am sick of scratching my head and screaming my heart out for you. you are one hell of an immatured person who know nuts about appreciating someone who was all along there waiting for you to make things right. for once and for all, be a guy. not for me, but for yourself. time to learn dude.

2009-07-18T22:42:00.002+08:00

HUUUUURAY!
i am back. hahah.
had a whole lot of fun and bonding during the camp. hahah awesome blossom!
i thought 5 days of camp is too long. but it turned out fine.

at first, i felt damn weird cus of the age variations yet we treat each other just the same. also cus i was the only malay girl and it's difficult to adapt i guess. there was a malay guy in my grp too, and he admitted that he's gay. so that's really interesting. hahaha. it's quite a waste cus actually he's kiiiiiiind of cute. but anyway, i love my group. there were 3 other pioneer schmate so actually it was quite easy for me.
first day was a little boring cus there's alot of waiting and admin and talks. the Apple company came and so it inspired us freshies to get a Mac cus basically it has been proven by the seniors that Mac is the most appropriate laptop fr art students. but its expensive hahahah. but damn i need a new laptop. mine is kinda gg bonkers. then we had a quiz bla3 and the gifts were not pathetic pencils or stickers of vouchers like how typical quizzes gave. they gave away ipod nanos. damn. i knew the answer man. hahahahahah. i mean i badly need a new mp3 too? argh.
at night, the school looks beautiful. because it's near to the woods, there were relatively more stars. so when you go to adm's rooftop and just chill- really nice. hahahha. i loved it. the seniors made us slide down the roof using water and soap on a plastic canvas. HAHA. fucking scary, but fun.
and then second day we had Amazing Race. because we overnight at the costa sands chalet, we started the race frm pasir ris. and the first clue was irritating cus it's so difficult to find. then frm there the other clues were all ard town area. meaning,for the very first time, i went to bugis, dhoby,sungai rd, arab street and bla3 with fbts and some stupid tee. and i think it's funny cus..it is just funny. with the messy look and everything, i was scared to bump into people that i know esp nisa cus she told me that she'll mock at me fr that. and hahahahahahahaa, funny. but it was a good experience. lucky i'm kinda familiar with the landmarks. or maybe it's just pure luck. and my group is one hell of a slacker grp. we didnt run. in fact we walked so slowly. we had unnecessary stops. and i was glad cus i manage to taste one of the best foods that i would never have known. we are one gluttony group.
third day, FRIGHT NIGHT WAS THE SEX. fuckingx1000 scary. i swear. it was damn good ah, cus i was really really scared. i screamed my lungs out and it has been so long. i mean i cannot blame them- they major in art, and of course the effects and the make-up were damn fucking real. because our camp's theme is quite morbid-ish, the fright night was inspired by the game L4D. so basically the 'ghosts' were zombies and there were dead hostages and yeah, the zombies CHASE AFTER YOU and go GARRRRRGGHHHHH. hahahahahaha. those lying will grab your feet. the most scariest was when we were in the Dark Room and there were 3 zombie nurses. and they really look real when they cry out loud and suddenly go GARGHH. haha! when i shouted, the other girl will shout. when she shouted, i will shout. lucky we went in threes and there was a guy. and i dont give a shit. i just held his hand cus i was too scared. hahahah. they were damn good. and oh yah i forgot, there was actually the witch and she cried out so loud, so real like the game. and when we walked past her she didnt get 'startled' cus we were walking damn calmly and trying nt to startle her. hahahahahhaah. one hell of a fright night!
fourth day's highlight was the BASH NIGHT. each grp had to perform. what was more fun was after that. they had the smoke machines, the lights and so they made a somewhat like a club. there was booze though. they had a podium. hahhhahah. it looks real. so yeah, we shake all night. my group leader got drunk. some seniors got drunk bla3. from the way they shake, we knew they're like hardcore clubbers. hahaha. my group grew tired and just decided to chill at the rooftop.
so in conclusion, the 50dollars i paid was damn worth it alright! chalet, 4 ADM apparels, club and free flow. damn worth it. hahahahhaha. i cant wait for sch. i knw im gona love it cus the ADM-ers look so united. one hell of an awesome blossom camp.

and im damn shagged. and tomorrow's back to reality aka work. damn.

2009-07-13T13:00:00.002+08:00

me and my stupid mouth.

2009-07-10T01:05:00.000+08:00

am i too fussy when it comes to guys?

2009-07-07T00:42:00.004+08:00

hurray hurray hurray! my being-damn-broke miseries are gone! for now. pay day is today and yeah, this time i am really really and i mean really REALLY manage my money. i shall have discipline and tha includes cutting down unnecessary expenditure. have to cut down on the ciggies too, illiyana. a large fraction of pay will go to driving! i mean school's starting and i hope to clear my pracs now that i have money. i can imagine when school starts: i am gonna work less, and i am gonna miss my dear colleagues. =( most imptly, i am gonna miss the luxury of having money. HAHA. well, sometime it sucks to be financially independent. =/

this week's shifts are heavy man. hardcore working this week. all 9hr shifts with 1 pathetic off-day. and hell no that off-day is my rest day. have to go for the stupid med checkup. like gg ns sia. wth. and i must say im kinda excited fr next week cus next's week is school camp week. five days is long sia. five days without fags- i like that. i think. hahahahhaha. and anyone owns a sleeping bag? cus i dont. can lend me? lazy to buy uh. damn.

and and and! thanks to my colleague fr bringing me to a rent-dvds shop and nw i'm hooked. hahahha. ive been renting dvds. it's a good pastime i think, i mean there's so many movies tha i've been wanting to watch. at least it makes me stay at home and save money huh. hahaha. damn i think i should change my blog sking- it's getting...plain and boring and lazy-to-blog kinda feeling. okay i'm shagged. i look weak and tired all the time. time to start jogging and stuff, HAHAH. and i am gonna fucking kill wandi for making me walk home alone at midnight! you watch out you.....

nsjnkdninfwcnjwbwfb! pfft.

i guess karma does happens huh. now it's my turn. bet you're enjoying it ay?

2009-06-30T23:32:00.003+08:00

DAMN DAMN DAMN!

i am fucking broke like seriously broke. shit. my money-management really suck lah. pay day is in a week's time and im figuring out how to top up my ezlink plus eat during breaks. mom will wonder where have all the money gone too. but honestly i havent been spending alot. just that the precious 50 bucks mom gave me was partially spent on cab, and fags.THATS ALL. cb the cab fare damn bloody ex. cus i was cheated by a driver. he drove a fucking long way. babi. im just feeling pathetic. lucky tmr no work, so i dont have to worry abt spending money on outside food. sigh. i really want my pay. so many things to do. top up fr driving esp.

and i am damn shagged! need to catch up on my sleep. maybe cus i sense period is coming so i'm getting tired more easily than usual, been eating/craving alot. and dont forget the mood swings. ive been very angsty plus having the i-dont-give-a-fuckin-shit attitude towards my everday problems. hahahaha. my sincere apologies to people who deserve the apology. =) really, im sorry. im human afterall. okay i know, that's just an excuse. =/

school is starting real soon. 8 months of working, damn i really miss school. there's so much work to do. like admin. this form, that form. man i can go bonkers! hahaha. havent been meeting the deadlines for this form and that form bla3. med checkup is next week and i hope everything stays confidential. i mean they really ask alot of questions in the form. like typical forms, i usually tick NO all the way. but nt for this one. there's a few YESes, surprisingly. i'm still thinking whther i shld lie abt my smoking habit. but i guess they'll figure it out through my urine test. i think? idk. haha. afterall, it says CONFIDENTIAL. ironically, i'm actually blogging abt it. but nah, it's just another habit. pfft. in conclusion, i want to go to sch. i want to go to the camp. can't wait. away from the usuals. for a change.

it's good that i've been working hard to save up money fr my license. i mean one session cost quite alot and the slots are so damn limited. slow and steady, illiyana. let's get it over and done with.

I am sleepy. Goodnight.

2009-06-27T00:25:00.000+08:00

just shut the fuck up, will you?

2009-06-17T00:14:00.002+08:00

OKAY I STILL HAVE AN ULCER. =(

cus of my big cheeks, i accidentally bit my left cheek fr almost one whole night, so when i woke up, there was a long lump, an ulcer an the end of it. SLENGE SIA. argh. bonjela's helping abit though. well, i admit i tend to clench my teeth when i sleep. and now im kinda having jaw probs, cus i kept adjusting my jaw so that my teeth wont hit my ulcer and bla2.

and so tmr is off day. and there's a 4E reunion @ ecp tmr! woooohoooo. night cycling/chilling/ potluck- sounds fun huh =) ! guess i wont be home. hahahahahah. hope i wont be sleepy or smtg. im kinda like a kental when it comes to tonnings. i just love to sleep huh. hahahha. well, that depends.

and, we're slightly almost there.

2009-06-12T22:09:00.002+08:00

though its just 10pm, i swear i am gonna tuck in after this! but i'm hungry though. and i feel like having a last stick. okay, maybe after i eat. hahaha.

been lacking sleep for the past two nights. i've been having a lot of morning shifts this week, so waking up at 6am is kind of the cause fr my lack of 10 hrs of slp per night. boohooo. this week feels so...different. maybe cus i've been spending time with my friends- both dunearn and jc. feels good to catch up here and there. finally i feel that i'm slowly picking up the pieces i shouldn't have left. i mean honestly, it feels different to know that there's no particular someone that's entertaining me at the moment, not that i need one. just trying to get the hang of it. no bedtime phone calls, no plans, no sense of commitment, nothing i guess. whther that suck or not, i'm keep convincing myself that i'll be able to manage this independence. i sense change. problem is i have no idea whether it's a good or bad one.

and the first change is- i am starting to be like hardcore bookworm. i dint sleep the whole wednesday night when i had work on thurs morning. and my colleagues thought i was out to parties or bla3- but turned out that i was peacefully on my bed with a book. HAHAAHAHAH. kental or what?! i mean New Moon's really good, addictive. yeah i knw, im gay. can't blame me fr being interested in fantasies, immortal, heroic kinda plots. oh well. and so i just finished the book, and i shall go to the library to look for Jodi Picoult's books. kinda miss them. hahahaha. something good- cus that's the thing that had been luring me to go home early just to read books, that has been acting as my bedtime phone calls. a first, good change.

i guess this is how i deal with it. i just hope there wont be any grudges between everything that's been happening. i was half-expecting your presence there.you looked at me with doubts, should you be happy, should you be angry. i'm sorry to put you in that mess. i really don't wanna lose a friend. oh well, what are the odds. idk. i hope things will get more..friendly? hah.

and work. ALOT of new faces. hell alot. and most of the guys look similar- same eyes, same hairstyles. but i'm sure we can bond. but i'm out to clear my name. damn, there are actually rumours about me: i didnt know that until they teased me. wth? they were saying that i'm having a crush on this newbie in work or smtg like that. SERIOUSLY WTH? and i they actually thought we're liking each other. i mean he doesnt even know who the hell his colleague by the name of illi is. so how possible that we can like each other? -__- actually i'm positive that it'll cease. 3 days or so? hahahahah. but work's always fun. i miss fucking alot of people. glad to see bryan after a week plus. managed to pull him out fr a smoke after work. it's good that smoking makes people socialise. and he decided to work cus he thought i'd be working till closing, turned out not.hahahaha. sorry bro i was doing morning. and hell yeah i am gonna miss Sammie. i mean not that u guys care, but her going away is gonna make me feel more lonely. damn. first Ica to sembawang, now Sammie to Novena. dou i shall work more to get more money. shop. yeah. the more need to shop, the more burden that's needed to go.

oh well.

2009-06-09T22:31:00.001+08:00

11.55 pm.

time to blow the candles out.

cheers for freshmints?

2009-06-09T01:19:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY,

MUHAMMAD SYAIRULWANDI!

have a good year ahead. just stop dota. that'll do the trick. hahhaha. and so it shall just be another off-day. or is it not?

2009-06-07T15:51:00.001+08:00

i'm sorry to be like Kelsey. like sorry can erase everything.

and so it's a rainy day. sunday bloody sunday.

2009-06-07T01:25:00.002+08:00

noone said it's gonna be easy anyway.

so the world is an unfair place afterall. and it's time to push back my seat tonight.

cheers for that.

somewhere only we know- keane

2009-06-03T00:12:00.001+08:00

hello i just ate cough + sore throat medcine and i am

DAMN DROWWWWWWSSSYY.

so bye and goodnight. hahahaha.

2009-06-02T00:53:00.002+08:00

HEY HO!

time check- its 1am. just got back from work and im like damn fuckin shagged. sales period is being a bitch now. keep going home at late hours cus there's so many things to clean up. suddenly i miss the old chill-fill days when we can leave ard 1030+? now the average time is like midnight and i know i should not be complaining. part of the job huh. -_- BUT, tomorrow's off day people! i can sleep like a pig, wake up anytime i want. and that explains why i'm online now. today there were new part-timers working and i kinda love them. haha. and i was the cashier for the night and there was this weird customer: he was with this girl so i assumed they were a couple uh. and the girl bought a black lacey g-string. the guy said to me:

guy: you see, i told her this thing doesnt look good on her.

me: errr, sorry i cant help you. it's between you and her actually. but when the mood starts, nothing else matter right hahaha. ( WTF ILLIYANA.)

guy: hey hey dont get me wrong. shes not my gf. shes my best friend. and im helping her get stuffs for her slumber party. but it sucks on her uh hahah.

me: hahaha okay. ( scanning items)

guy: but you know, im always available fyi. do wanna scan my barcode and check me out? (showing back shoulder) hahah.

me: ermmmmmmm, hahaha. right.

guy: besides have u made love under the stars?

me: HUH?

WTF?!!! hhahaahahahahahaha. seriusli customer, you are one weird guy. and i think thats a cute pick-up line. guys, you guys should learn it. hahahahahahaha. but that under-the-stars question? weird. too bad he's kinda hot. HAHAH. i think he's mixed. anw. that's the joke of the day. i just learnt a new pick-up line. hahahhahha.

my shoulders legs aching. kinda heavy eyelids. and i was talking to my new colleague who happens to be a vox of a band. oh how much i miss jammin and making music. damn. i should get myself some interest sia. i mean i cant be having a loser-ish life and work everyday. MOE hasnt called me to ask me fr relief-teaching. double damn!

okay nothing else to talk about. goodnight! hope my sore throat will get better. =(

2009-05-27T20:21:00.003+08:00

i woke up with a bad fever yesterday morning. =( the worst thing is i was dreaming that i was working. i was folding sienna cardis while shivering. and i didnt realise that i was shivering for real. that explains why i had fever. it developed overnight. i mean i perfectly fine when i fell alsp. weird. now the thing is, i still have it. and a sore throat. smoking made it worst. damn. maybe this acts an incentive for you to quit, illiyana. hahahahahha. booohoo my throat hurts. i need more badak drinks. vapourdrops arent working.

misery loves me.

tomorrow is gonna be a happening workday cus most of the fun people are working. hahaha. hopefully i will be perfectly fine by tomrrow. i was like darn lemau just nw during work. if i knew how to faint for real, i would. cus i felt like collapsing anytime. maybe cus BODY's making me sick of work. oh well. like i have a choice. i don't think i'm selfish. am i? hahaha. no im not. BODY's making everyone SICK. and im really sick. im ill. im sick. hahahhahahahhah. geddit?

okay its 2 am. i need to sleep. goooooodnight wonderful and lovely avid readers!

2009-05-26T03:02:00.003+08:00

hey hey ho!

omg im starting to be active in facebook. i mean its quite fun afterall. hahahah. ended work at 1 am again. wth. getting used to it. pretty tired, but nt sleepy. so here i am. i sense smtg bad- incoming sore throat. darn i shld stop smoking! quit illiyana quit. i see hope. hahahhahaahaha. anw i burnt my finger cus i was rushing so i shuffed the ciggie butt on the bin and the ashes hit me. =( slenge.

YAHOOOO TMRW OFF DAY. hahahaha. but i wanna go Cheers can? hahahahahahahahahhaa,

Undiscovered- Ashlee Simpson

2009-05-21T11:11:00.002+08:00

yeah yeah i know, im sick of this blog too. should change the skin or smtg. but i am just darn lazy. hahaa.

work starts at 1.30 today. had a good long sleep. and damn, i dreamt im going to san francisco. hahahaha. why cant it be for real. i am really in the mood to shop. i just need money. been working everyday, so i shall pamper myself when i get my pay. HURRAY! im going shopping fr GSS. unlike last year. -_-

they say, the more shopping bags you have, the heavier your burden is. i think it's true.

and so i've been very close with my colleagues. and i'm very happy with that. maybe cus i've been seeing them everyday. chilling after work. so that explains. but yeah, been laughing alot with them. i'm starting to feel emotionally attached to work, and Cheers. "Cheers to Cotton On" . HAHAHAHAH. but i shall request more off days. damn im shagged.

tomorrow mum's birthday! im gg to get her present today and surprise her this midnight when i come back from work. hahahahaha. and tomorrow is friday. time flies fast when you're having fun.

people are starting to move on. you're happy ,everyone's happy right. that marks a good end. or is it just a beginning?

2009-05-18T11:12:00.003+08:00

rise and shine! luckily work starts late today. i thought i'm working in the morning. well well well, i've been gone for way too long huh. cant deny it has been a very busy week for me. shagged =(

last monday was my birthday + the opening of ctn on body at lot 1. so yah, it sucks to have work on your birthday, AND it sucks more to spend your birthday with noone. but it's been fun though. the overnight picnic didnt have to stop actually. thanks, rain. thanks for the presents, people. the wallet, the lingurie, cake on my face. yeah. HAHA. hope next year will be the same, or even better?

so yah, i've been working mostly with women and their bras and g-string bla2. kinda fun but kinda sucky too. BEEN WORKING ALMOST EVERYDAY. cb kia. yeah i knw i cant complain. but im kinda tired actually. should catch up with me interest. trust me, you'll get bored easily. -_-personally i think work is less fun there. maybe because we're just too used to a big store. so yah, nw we say, " good evening! cotton on lot 1 MEGA STORE. how can i help?" HAHAHHAAHA. big deal. -__-. i miss cassie.

then last saturday there were two events: tea party in sch and the redbull motocross thingy. tea party in school was not even a tea party. i literally went there to eat. ate alot of eclairs. hahahah can't help it sia. orgasmic taste.HAHAHA.mingled around here and there with those experienced ones.orientation camp will be around july. well, i'm pretty excited actually. can't wait to start school. maybe because i'm just tired of working. hope i can click well with the freshmen there, and we can be close friends or smtg. idk. uni life sounds so independent and lonesome?

the motocross thingy? beyond impressive. wow. good to see it in front of your very own eyes.

i shall apply for relief teaching. i want more money. i can't teach tuition. i dont think im patient enough.

and you said i dont have to feel sorry? cus i dint do anything wrong? think again. i have been the one who's making everything wrong. everyone gets hurt because of me. i don't mean to make everything revolve around me. but yeah, seems like it. now, more people keep getting hurt. and the usuals get tired of being hurt. it's like im the poison. nvm, i'm almost done. i want to be done. time to push back my seat.

i need a vacation. you need a vacation. and we shall get away from reality.

Almost Here- The Academy Is

2009-05-08T11:54:00.002+08:00

hey ho! it's the weekend! well, almost. and hey! looks like i have a new english teacher who's out there to spot my grammatical errors bla2. funny. hahhahahhaha.

anw anw, finally, i'm working a 5-hr shift today! i'm darn tired cus of non-stop work. i shall have more off-days. but wtf, it's nt as if they'll give me that off-day. i'm like the part-timer with the most pathetic life- no plans everyday, no school. so yeah, all work and no play makes illiyana a dull girl. yesterday was the best work day- 13 hours in the store. WTF?!

and so tomorrow is my sister's 11th birthday. and i know what to get her. so yeah, i shall buy it later and go to work and then give to her at midnight later. this is like the first time i'm buying her something memorable. hahahahahha. maybe cus i'm working? well, there's so many gifts to get for people- sister's bday, mother's day, mum's bday + someone's bday next month. hahahah. and yeah something nice to pamper myself on the 11th of course. maybe food. HAHA. tonight we're supposed to have an overnight picnic at wcp i think. but too bad, im working and yeah, you guys go ahead without me & yeah, have fun. don't get drunk. HAHAHAH.

okay i got nothing to rant about. should i buy oc dvds? anyone interested to share?

2009-05-04T21:02:00.002+08:00

there's so many to say. guess idk where to start huh.
but someone told me, sometimes things are better left unsaid,
to make things better maybe?
sometimes we are better not knowing the truth.
to make things better too maybe?

well, guess what? yeah. better left unsaid.
time to make things right,illiyana. it's been 6 months of bull.
i know i'm selfish.
well, time to shoot.
question is who.

turning 19 next week.
i dont feel different. in fact, i feel worst.
cheers.

2009-05-01T23:46:00.004+08:00

while doing cashier,
me: hey! hai. so how's shopping?=) (scanning the items)
customer: *cricket*

while doing front zone,
me: hai welcome. how are ya?
customer: huh? with a -_-

COME ON WTH. hhahahahahahahaha.
i mean i tried to be sincere, and interact with you people once in a while.
maybe i'm the failure. i mean i'm just doing my job.
and i have to meet fellow customers with a stupid big cricket in their heads.
HAIYER.

anw, it's labour day. so what?
it's may. birthday month people.
argh its just gonna be another dark blue monday.
pathetic eh. hope not. i shall pamper myself on that day.
hahahaha. sister's birthday is coming too.
and yeah this year, she'll get smtg. idk.
i'm feeling generous now.
who want my money?
no wait, im officially broke.
ez link. food money.
-__-

oh well, finally like F-I-N-A-L-L-Y,
OC season 3 ep1 is complete. wanna watch now.
bye and have a great weeeeekkkkeeend!

2009-04-29T13:09:00.003+08:00

hurray! thank you, God and everyone else who have helped me. things are going as they are planned now. well, not everything, but knowing that you're going to a higher level shall make half the things in my life go smoothly. i am just glad that the sacrifices are all worth it. woooooohoooooo!

hahahahahahahahaha happy siol.

anw anw, its a rainy wednesday and i was supposed to work earlier today. but they wanna cut manpower. so yeah, im one of the lucky ones huh. will start work later at 530. well well, blogging is getting boring. hahah. time to clean up my room.

bye!

2009-04-27T00:21:00.004+08:00

well, well, looks like this blog is dying huh. its like, theres nothing to rant about? or maybe too much but i just dont know where to start, how to express, how to conclude. idk.

already 1230am, monday morning. hope it rains, so i can have a good sleep. hahaha. seriously ive been sleeping like an animal. 11 hours, 12 hours. and that happens when people actually wake me up. i think i can sleep forever if noone bugs me. pfft, im a lazy asshole. hahahah. well, blame my working hours lah. but pay day this month is gonna be a fuckin good day for me. SHOPPING: i miss it. and i need to book pracs. -_- nisa, when when when?! hahahah. prac's fun. just that i felt like a fool. i think the bike riders must have cursed me alot. hahah oh well.

argh. im working on a monday and i swear its gonna be a slow and mundane day. MONDAY BLUES sia.like dark blue uh. hahah. recently, i received a 100 bucks voucher to spend on uniform, but seriously, i have no idea what to spend on. i mean, no clothes are really appealing. maybe it's just me. i suck wearing them. i mean, why the fuck we need to dress up for work. im gonna miss my polo tee and shorts and slippers. =( you know, sometimes you just feel lazy, and 'slacky' for work. but now, there's no choice. we must put on fashion tops and bottoms plus shoes and not slippers. and too bad, i dont feel the need to attract people when working. unlike some others. anyway anyhow, cant deny im kinda excited about the voucher. must make ful use of it. work is starting to have politics. that suck balls uh.

these days have been so warm and humid. like now. it's starting to irritate me. im sorry God, but i'm nt blaming anything. just blaming myself fr complaining. i mean people keep saying that hell's gonna be waaaay hotter. i know. just gonna get use to the 'summer' here.

the movies for this season are gonna be interesting. sounds fun. and yeah, guess im getting older in 2 weeks' time. and i wont be surprised if this year's birthday is gonna be another monday. wth. okay time to sleep.

goodbye and goodnight!

2009-04-21T00:14:00.002+08:00

WOW.
i kinda miss this place.
sorry uh. busy + lazy. -__-
anw anw, i shall write some crap.

and so the reds came. first day.
thank god it was alright. i could still talk, work, think, eat.
cus usually first days are terrible days where i can just lie down, without peace that is.
and yeah, im shagged. been working non stop. =(
tomorrow will be the 9th day im working without off day.
yeah yeah i aspire to be the richest part-timer in ctn on. -_-
nah i need money anw. who doesnt need money? hahahahaha.
tomorrow we shall end at 3am again cus its the end of sales.
HURRAY! cus sometimes customers in lot 1 must have dumped their tiny brains somewhere.
irritating uh. yeah yeah its part of my job to entertain them.
but seriously sia, sometimes cannot help it.
customers can just make your day with a smile. =)
kiss my ass.

its been so long since i bought a fashion magazine.
suddenly i feel like shopping. we shall wait for sales period.
sucks to be a girl sia.
hahahahahahaha.

and i shall go exercise one day okay.
i started by walking home from mrt already.
hahahahahahahahha. seriously ill,
cut down on the food, ballsxsx.
kay bye. goodnight!
XOXO.

2009-04-11T23:41:00.002+08:00

these past few days have been so fucked up for me. i mean, more fucked up than usual. idk. sometimes i realize i can one hell of a mofo. really, i need a break from what's been happening. i mean, i don't ask for it. and i know you didn't too. but we are handling it wrongly, in fact, we are making it worst. yeah my attitude suck uh. just dont get drunk because of me. it's not worth it. -__-

i want to freeze time. and turn it back, and find the time when i used to be illiyana.

fading.
sounds familiar? i did not ask for this.

2009-04-11T01:05:00.005+08:00

AAAAAARRRRRRR RRRRRR RRRRRR RRRRRRRRRRRR

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GG GGGGGGGG GGGGGG GGGGGGG GGGGG

GG GGGGGGG GGGG GGGG GGGG GGGGG

G GGGGGGGGGGGGGG GG GGH HHHHHHHH

HHHH HH HH HHHHHH HHHHH HHH HHHHHHHHHHHHH

HHHHHHH HHHH HHHHHH HHH HH HHHHHH HHHHHH

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1 more month and im fuckin 19.

2009-04-04T12:05:00.003+08:00

finally, i can wake up today without an alarm clock.
it feels good to know that you've slept enough. 11 hours.
hahahahaha. yeah i know, im like snorlex. however it's spelled.
today is a saturday. and it's very rare that i get an off-day on a saturday.
and sadly, i have no plans. only a family dinner.
no beach outing, no town, no chill, no ben&jerrys.
SUCK BALLS LA.
nvm. i've been neglecting my family anw.
time to make it up, illiyana.

i mean i really want to swim in the sun.
daddy asked me to go swimming with him and the kids,
but they plan to go in the morning. and morning = illiyana wants to sleep.
hahaha. nah i prefer the beach anw.
anyone? booohooo.
your life suck.

so does my life.
im fucking broke. cb.
i really am fucking broke.
been owing money here and there.
my moods have been playing me these days.
i keep getting pissed, arguing bla bla bla.
sorry to everyone who was affected.
i suck la okay.

back to square one.
oh fuck, im tired already.
i envy those people who are fucking darn happy with their life.
i miss those days.

2009-03-31T06:06:00.002+08:00

time check- 6:06 am and i'm not asleep.
it's not that i can't sleep as in insomnia,
but i CAN'T SLEEP.
need to hand in my stupid portfolio by today/later.
i can die. i really can die. i am very very very x100 sleepy =(
i should not have procrastinated. i suck.
oh well. cant deny that is how i work. last minute.
argh i suck sia. cb. i wanna sleep.
i thought i could finish all by 6 am.
turns out that i can. i realised i really cant draw architecture + humans.
gonna be a huge pitfall when it comes to drawing skills.
why cant they ask me to draw insects or flowers or something that i can draw.
boooohoooo. so yeah, i gave up that topic.
decided to pick the other one which is an essay on some stupid video.
okay, i call it stupid cus i'm brainless enough not to understand.
guess i rather play with words than stupid human figures.
i need some inspiration.
i need something to freshen me up.
i feel like taking a cold bath.
i made myself cappucino 3in1. hahhaha.
duh? of course its 3in1.
i burnt my tongue.
I AM SO MISERABLE NOW.
bye.

2009-03-24T12:07:00.002+08:00

HEY HO.

sometimes i feel like killing this blog.

i mean i don't blog much anymore.

not that im in camp or whatsoever, HAHAHAHA,

i'm just plain lazy. gonna change it sooner.

for the betterment. does that word actually exist? -_-

working today @ 5.30pm. this week's shift are pretty slack-ish.

i like. but after my portfolio miseries are over, i shall work again.

i mean really work. i need money. i want money.

i want to spend. spend SPEND.

they say, the more shopping bags you carry, the more miserable you are.

maybe that speaks it all. i need something to erase the past miseries i've done to myself and to a few unfortunate souls- shopping! that suck cus i kind of hate this season's.

i want to watch a couple of movies. and yah sorry dude, those are girl-ish movies.

so it means i shall bring a girl out. have some girly time. i miss girl outings. boohooo =(

sometimes i feel like im the worst girl ever.

dude, i dint reply your texts simply because im not interested and i don't want any more complications in my goddamn pathetic life? you just pop into my life when it's already so complicated and you wish i could devote to you.

so don't tell me i made you waste your time. think again.

and to you, yeah you must agree with me. im in your black books now,

and i certainly know i deserve it. go tell your friends and let them curse me cus i know they have been. they will say smtg like.." i told you so." that kinda bullshit. for all i care, they are right.

i don't deserve you and don't you counter me back cus that's a fact. oh god what happened to me.

honestly, i will always bear this pinch of guilt in me and i know you will always bear a pinch of grudge. well, if that makes the world go round, i rest my case.

i dont think my problem is solved. i dont think we are that strong-hearted.

something will go wrong somewhere. strong gut feeling.

even though i had to end it with one, even if i'm glad my miseries are over,

i dont think they will perish clean. i just don't feel a good vibe.

yeah so, my sincere apologies. you know it's not easy.

hate me all you want. just take good care of yourself.

be a good boy. study hard. do it for yourself, dude.

ARGH. time for portfolio.

i want to watch movies.

i want to watch oc season 3.

i want to shop.

i want money.

after 1st april.

2009-03-21T16:41:00.002+08:00

it's been a fast week. i mean today's already saturday.
i guess time passes by fast, whther you're having fun or not.
as for me, it's been a mundane, aimles week, plus a rough weekend.
well, atleast a rough start for the weekend.
THANKS ALOT TO YOU, OR WHOEVER WHO THEY FEEL THEY SHOULD BE THANKED.
ARGH! how's life? life suck balls. a dead monkey's balls.
disgusting sia hahahahah. idk. really.
that's how i feel.
i wish i can be in someone else's shoes.
i'd rather have another life problem than this.
i think this is like the major of all major. idk. guess im just an amateur.
and i know people around me, around you guys, must have written my name in their respective black lists. i know and i deserve that.
i really wish a truck will hit me hard and i'll forget everything.
atleast i wont have to solve something that i can never solve.
i don't know i don't know.
i keep arguing with myself.

i just want a new life. can?

with this story,
always working,
constant purpose
but I heal,
i won't compromise and i heal.
I'm So Sick- Flyleaf

2009-03-15T23:59:00.002+08:00

hello hello hello!
its ard midnight, and im alr sleepy. WEIRD.
cmon illiyana, its just 12 am and tmr's off. -__-
maybe due to laptop lagging, urgh, makes me tired of waiting.

finally i feel like i am ready to really have a headstart for this stupid portfolio.
11/12 more days to submission and im like not even 1/4 done sia.
STRESS. but sometimes i realize i work best under pressure.
see how uh. i can't turn down work that easily, or heartlessly.
so yeah, work is bugging me. but i need money at the same time.
hahahhaha.
then admin issues for admissions for school is killing me cus it's fucking troublesome.
unlike the posting period for sec where MOE does the job for them.
now we have to write essays saying why we're qualified. i will be expecting a cliche.
shall start tomorrow. have to have to.
if not, i can kiss goodbye to ADM. =(

today the reds cramps came and it killed me.
it always does. lucky today wasn't that bad and torturous as compared to the previous ones.
i requested an early knock-off and went home and sleep.
it was raining cats and dogs with lightning and thunders.
I LOVED IT. finally, there was something that makes me wanna go home early:
sleeping while it's raining. magical feeling.
hahahahaahahahahhah.

time for Romeo&Juliet@ HBO.
i dont take lit but whatever.
i feel like watching a romance movie.
hopefully it will inspire me as well as drill in some lovey-dovey principles in my head.
i need that. pfft.

2009-03-12T00:36:00.003+08:00

okay okay i know.
what do you expect?
i have no time to update, until now.
so yeah.
so many events that i went through,
and maybe i shall share some?

finally, the phase of A levels is over.
like completely over. surprisingly my score,
wow, i expected worse.
so yah people, sorry if i complaint too much about school,
especially ART. hahahhaha.
oh well, cant deny i was the happiest girl in the whole wide world.
i hope i deserved those grades.
in fact, i think i do. idk. hahahhah. just glad.
and congrats to the rest who felt they did well.
everyone's happy for everyone.
now the next step is admission and trust me i am fucking lazy to do this portfolio.
ARGH. fucking lazy la! hahahahhaahhaha.
but this portfolio is my lifeline and i need it.
i shall start tomorrow then. -_-
i mean admissin websites are already open, so yah.
and yeah, hopefully i'll do a good job.

i'm chatting with helmi and he's telling me someone died in NTU.
-__- thanks bro for the encouragement.
hahahaha. it means i havent been reading the papers.
i dont know why i dont even bother.
sometimes when you have the passion for something bt you cannot commit to it,
might as well you go and suck some balls.
i mean, just one gig wont harm your life.
talk about being serious.

well, fee the soon-to-be-sapau guy, hahahha, is in camp now.
afiq and me talking yesterday, and we realised we kind of miss him already.
booohooo. somehow i cannot deny that.
anyway it's beside the malay cemetery, and it was my first time seeing a cemetery that close.
the boys will have interesting nights huh. hahahahhha. wth.
the place is like a school to me. so i wont be surprised if fee's already comfortable there,
especially when the food is dope. hahahah.
happy holidays, dude.

oh man, i've been like working everyday now. this week im working 6 days.
but short hours though. but the thought of coming down to work fr 6 days- tiring.
shall request offs. need more time fr myself.
fuck procrastination. i need to avoid it.
hahhahahahahah.
okay im done cus idk what else to talk about.
so bye.

2009-03-05T00:35:00.009+08:00

Iniquitous Justice
Acrylic on ply wood

i hope my sweat,blood and tears and i really mean sweat, blood and tears., for this piece won't go to waste. please god. i know you must be hating me or get disappointed.
but hope you'll show how sacrifices can be fruitful in the end of the day.
eyes closed, fingers crossed.
dont ask me what the artwork is about. cus im lazy to explain.
hahahahahhahahahha.

2009-03-04T01:15:00.003+08:00

hello!
im tired.
tired to work. hahhaha. yay tmr is off-day.
surprisingly im not sleepy yet. tho its like 1+ am.
i brought home a million hangers since ctn on wants to replace the new version hangers.
ugly sia. hahahhha.
so that gives me a motivation to clean up my messy and i mean really messy bedroom.
time to clear some dirty clothes which have been chucked aside like for days?
hahahahahahahhaa. and i'm a young lady. should not call myself that.
mom and dad have been nagging alot recently.
bout my room and my commitments.
oh well. maybe cleaning up my room will make them happier?
and i hope tmr will be day my room can smile.
hahahahaha. lazy asshole.
but i feel like going out tmr.
see how.

idk what other nonsense i can touch on.
so goodbye and goodnight.
sleep well dont dream, dont let the bed bugs bite.
but let the lovebugs bite,
and not the lovebites bug.

hahahah dont ever wonder bout what i just said/typed whatever.
bye.

2009-03-01T13:54:00.002+08:00

hello avid readers!
can't believe im still awake. yeah.
havent slept since ytd 1100am. robot girl afterall.
hahaahah.

well i must say the night outing was pretty fun.
the usuals. plus some others who kind of went home early.
aladdin and magic carpet(whatever its called) cafe, hahahahah, for strawberry seesha.
got fucked by one of the waiters/workers there. or maybe we fucked him cus of the good manners we/they had.
spent the night polluting my poor body. like really polluting. oh man i must stop before its 'in my blood' according to rauzanah.
hahaahaha.
been million years since i met mr ethyl chloride. hello mr! you spiced me up, you woke me up. thanks and i kind of love you.
be my boyfriend can. hahaahahaa.
you turned me into an idiot for awhile. oh well. everyone loves laughing. something lame/stupid/nonsensical can make you burst into laughter.
argh i killed alot of brain cells. not alot i think. cb not good fr the health, but i dont need brain cells now. haahahah.
i was like testing myself some maths just to see whether i've turned more dumb. i managed to get the answers right.
but i took quite a while to figure out whats 6x8 though. 48. duh. hahaahhahhahahahahahah.
and a couple of booze dint hurt. so yah.
wtf illiyana you dumbass.
fun. aishah i hope you love the bra. HAHAHAHA.
hope it fits you actually.

supposed to teach my sister but she went out -__- .
you pulled the trigger sis. i planned to devote my day fr you cus tmr's exams.
and now you're out. BANG BANG BANG! too late cus i wanna go out too.
i dont wanna sleep though im quite sleepy. dont wanna alter my body clock.
i have no idea whther im working tmr. wtf. i hope im not. LAZY LA. walao.
work is boring like fuckin boring nw. but i want money. argh.

and speaking bout money,
no offence cus my previous entry dint mean to shoot you.
i was just speaking my mind. and nah its okay.
no apology needed. you dint offend me much and i think noone's to blame.
even if you insist an apology, then apology accepted.
well, i was just helping. you know.

helmi just texted me bout some stupid gig.
now its my turn.
SUKE HATI KAU LA. APAPE KAU NAK LA.
cb cb cb.

kay bye.

2009-02-28T00:25:00.002+08:00

hello wonderful and lovely people.
it's been a while. guess i am just a pretty lazy asshole.
hahahaha. kinda sick seeing my blog like this.
should change the skin. but urgh im lazy.
so forget it.

so this week's been a slacky week cus i only work like thrice?
short hours. kay maybe 2 days of short hours.
alot of snapping pictures to get the hang of it.
met alot of different people.
new people. new friend. which is kinda weird.
met rauzanah the art teacher. i was offered to teach for term2.
idk whether i like it. cus its dunearn for god's sake. -__-
the kids. dont think i can handle that. hahahahha.
try my best. i mean its fun to teach when you have passion for the subject.
and not the passion for teaching. totally different meaning, people.
then alot of how-are-you questions. which i am kind of lazy to attend to them.
so painting a picture of my life that's 'always' been stable and hippy is a good move i guess.
cus im fucking lazy to tell a bedtime story to every single one of them who i think won't care bout what i faced and facing. so pretence is good.
i realize sometimes when you have a problem that has a lot of chapters, you will grow tired of it?
so yeah, just stop it there.

i am tired.
you gave me a random call.
with your heartless voice.
i shall pay you back asap and maybe thats happy for you cus i have nothing to do with you anymore.
is that what you want?
then you're getting it.

all i want is you showing me a garden that's bursting into life.

2009-02-23T23:58:00.002+08:00

hello its 1 am.
i realized i'm getting sleepy easier compared to the normal sleep-late nights.
i mean i've been getting more weak and tired easily.
and i can only wonder and not conclude.
hahahaha.

made IC like finally and collection is in a million years' time.
the photo suck balls cus i was having a fucking fake smile.
i hate taking pics fr passport or ic whatever it is.
sucks. cus i will end up sucky.
yeah you're right, mr policeman may let me go when he sees the dumbass look on my ic.

okay im getting sleepy.
must get used to it.
get used to something missing.
well, i can't deny i kind of miss the times.
i just suck. bye.