i used to think i was a pretty optimistic person.
but somehow the thick and thins actually made me realise, that i am not. hahah.
silly me. i use to think that im strong-hearted.
but i realised im not.
i used to think of the many things of myself, but i, am, not.
well, as they say, the more complicated shits you face, the more you explore yourself.
now you know. now i know. i suck. it sucks to me.
life's a bitch. and i'm one.
i lost my compass i ran away i didnt wanna find it.
and i dug my own grave and now i am lying in it.
people make stupid mistakes and the best damn thing is you will never know whther it's a mistake afterall.
people make decisions everyday and the best damn thing is you will never know whether it's even right. pfft.
and yeah, and you have is like what? faith and fate?
you face fate. fuck fate. i just wish i have someone who can tell me what the future is gonna be like.
my friend the palm-reader claimed i am gonna die early. hahahaha.
maybe i am gonna. that sucks.
i don't wanna lose a friend. sometimes i feel i don't really have any close friends. that sucks more.
i don't wanna rely my life on a partner cus that sucks if he dumps you and you're left alone.
i mean not that guys actually think twice before they dump a girl.
i don't know what the fuck am i ranting about anyway.
i'm starting to feel sleepy now that i'm talking nonsense.
i dont know.
maybe one day i will realise how much i am appreciated.
and i shall know how much i was appreciated.
maybe that fateful day will be too late.

somehow i believe that if you are fated to be with someone,
you shall meet him/her again.
yeah corny like i said.
i loved you. i think.
well, i thought i was.
i really thought i was at that point in my life.
maybe i was too young then.
oh well.
so, friends?