it's only february and you are giving me a hectic start for the year.
thanks alot!
so much has happened recently.
and i meant so much.
i mean physically, emotionally, spiritually.
and i actually thought life after the disastrous life of As would be much better, much stable.
turns out to be the opposite? well, life does sucks sometimes.
people's been saying i lost ALOT of weight and they kept asking what stress can be more stressful than 2008. so yeah, physically, i lost weight cus i am finally convinced cus of long lost friends who kept emphasizing on that? bullshit. in fact, i've been eating unhealthy food everyday people. wth.
emotionally cus of the clouds have been hanging me with a thin string?
the ninth has been playing with gravity. keeps pulling me up, then bring me down.
whereas the first or maybe the second have been pulling me down?
thanks, clouds. you guys gave me a hell of 2-3 months. sometimes i don't even know where i deserve to belong to. everyone says the ninth cloud is just a honeymoon period, temporarily that is. and i definitely agree. i mean you face the bitches in your life. wtf am i ranting about.
so yeah. i hate the clouds. makes me have an abnormal way with how i deal myself at times.
mind vs mind. heart vs mind. mind vs heart. heart vs heart and the fucking list never fucking stops. cb.
i suck =(
for now, things been gg pretty fine. i guess.
cus i kinda like have to bury my head in a mission which determines my future.
my gloomy future. argh.
i need to brainstorm. crack my rusty brain for artistic ideas for this stupid portfolio.
ARGH. adrenaline rushes through my brains.
brain cells yo, i need you guys.
shall listen to softer music. -__-
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.
and so i had work today. we were talking about our love life.
and i concluded something interesting:
life doesn'thave to be systematic all the time.
people tend to have a plan for everything.
from crushes to friends, from friends to lovers, from lovers to like seriously lovers.
i mean, it doesn't have to be that way all the time?
you dont have to see crushes as people who must be lovers in the end of the day.
in conclusion, i just feel like,
even how much you like someone, that person doesnt have to end up as your bf/gf one day.
you dont have to plunge yourself in a rship anw. i mean there is a never a systematic plan.
idk. wtf. my beliefs are getting distorted.
i dont even think a soul understands where i am coming from in this issue.
so im tired to explain?
i am pretty shagged. tired. drained. tired drained sleepy bla2.
so brainstorming now doesnt help. and that suck.
GOODNIGHT AND GOODBYE PEOPLE.
so are you listening?!