oh man i'm feeling,
giddy. lovesick. lonely.
boohooo.
okay went to town.
walked and walked till my legs kinda hurt. lol.
used to it.
passed by hyatt several times.
inner conflict. to find? to look? to smile?
i don't fucking know.
i chose none. friends helped me take a look.
refused to.
urgh.
i am such a lousy girlfriend.
the lousiest in the whole wide world.
guilt, guilt and guilt.
yeah i suck, i know.
happy?
sometimes they say the more shopping bags you have, the more burden there is in you.
if i had enough money, there'll be many shopping bags.
but no. only had one. HAHA.
oh man. i think i really suck.
and oh shit the best thing was i vomitted along the way home.
drunk. HAHA. no. siao.
maybe empty stomach. maybe too much thinking. maybe lovesick.
hahahahahha. urgh it was disgusting.
luckily the person beside me didnt notice anything.
or should i say, didn't smell anything.
for the first time in the world,
illiyana vomitted in the bus.
and on the train platform with more coming.
hahahaha. today was a lucky day.
it's like everything is planned.
the toilet we went to had an extra plastic bag.
so yeah, filled it with the shits. ew.
lucky nisa has spare clothing. thanks dear.
sheesh. dirty day. eww?
feeling better. but lazy to go to school tomorrow.
shall rest.
okay this new look is so simple, but so what.
hahaha.
i had a bad day.
kinda numb to it.
i don't know.
i miss you. alot.
i'm so lousy. urrrrrgh.
so nisa, thanks ALOT LOT LOT for being there,
cleaning up for me, holding plastic bag for me, stand-bying plastic bag.
hahahahhaahhaha.
i love you. thanks alot! owe you.
clarke quay was beautiful.
i should rest.
its 1 am. so goodnight.
so are you listening?!