forcing myself to do work.
all i did was a stupid GP essay.
and my there my friends are out there,
asked me to join them here and there,
the only reason why i turned down,
is because of this stupid exam fever.
alongside with the guilt even if i decided to go,
which will not give me what i wanna feel.
been updating myself with friends here and there,
and how much they're having fun.
jamming, gigs, chilling out till late night,
when i'm here just forcing myself to imagine,
not be a part of it.
and then i realized these two years of education is a mere faker of what i actually am.
i literally forced myself to digest the reality that a so-called prestigious level of instituition is all that can bring you up there,
when at the same time it can plunge you down so..deep?
emotionally. mentally.
to wrap it up, these two years were hell.
i never loved it. and am glad i'm burying these two years shortly.
because i realized it's giving me mental disturbance beyond my imagination.
hahahahahaha.
i'm just burnt out. tired of studying anymore.
i miss town. i miss my friends.
oh man.
i won't get what i want,
and the sad thing is i'm not even doing anything about it.
the tornados are coming in 5 days.
and i can predict i won't equip myself with the proper first-aid kit.
so are you listening?!