these past few days- draggy.
i realized this ever-changing mood of mine,
is starting to make me tired myself.
physically,mentally, emotionally. oh that suck.
negative emotions can dominate your heart.
but the question is will it dominate your brain?
i should be more introvert, i realize.
let the blood from the heart painstakingly gush through theses veins,
but not out of the mouth.
people make stupid mistakes everyday.
well, again, i'm one of them.
periods. if there's such a pill to make me happy temporarily
and not let this grotesque monster engulf me,
i'll buy it. hahaha. perhaps laughing gas speaks it all.
no that won't work. what will work is a soul. a sincere one.
today is the 19th. luckily i'm not some i-expect-gifts girlfriend when it comes to month-sary.
hahah. i just need smiles and laughters.
so yeah, happy 8th months with you syairulwandi!
thank you for tolerating my nonsense this far.
don't worry, i'm tired myself.
still, you brought me to the tenth cloud.
this heart beats for you. really.
thank you.
and i'm so lazy to walk around these days
due to time not allowing me.
and shit, i've been browsing shopping websites.
e-shopping. it's dangerous you see.
hahaha.
give me a hundred bucks, and i'll spend it on my art.
oh i'm tired already. very very very tired.
i'm not lying, am i.
someone, stop me from eating myself.
so are you listening?!