firstly, those people who i confided in. it`s up to them how they want to react.
nothing to do with me. i told them what you told me. nothing twisted okay.
erm who says i want to break any friendship?
was just pissed that maybe the talk was because of some wrong facts.
what? especially the main dish part. for fuck`s sake, they were never a main dish.
and if it`s about nisa, thursday was the first time i went out with her. enough proof to say we`re close? the fact that we study together was why we`re close. main thing is did i ever neglected you people? was i ever close with nisa in school?
oh yah i forgot. my presence was just physical.ha ha. yeah right.
was meant to be a talk, but the talk sucks. first its about me changing my attitude.
then talked about me prioritising the 4n friends. then it`s about nisa.
okay syaf concluded it was mainly about nisa.
" maybe we cared too much. maybe we should just let you go and pulled by the waves."
for fuck`s sake again, HAHA, what waves? i don`t geddit dear syafiqah.
is nisa influencing me?

ok. and IF it`s about me and dearest shafi'i,
AGAIN, i never neglected you people.
5 days of frens, and a cherishable saturday of boyfriend.
including the fact that we don`t go out every saturday.
haha.
what more?

and the fact that i always have no money to join dinner after school
in some fast food restaurants. i noticed wanie and mira`s bonding.
i don`t make a big fuss? cus i understand that you guys have the same similarities
and that`s mainly eating bla3. oh why didn`t i do anything you may ask.
what is there to do. what is there for me and nisa to do seriously.
i thought everything was fine. i thought it`s balanced,
i thought we were happy. seriously.
suddenly i was pulled to talk, it blowed me big time.

maybe i`m a little deprived of childhood.
i should be experiencing this two years ago maybe.
how great. i talked and talked. but still i dunnow,so can i know..
what is the main objective of the talk ?